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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

More than words can say

As many may know, Cory passed away yesterday afternoon with me by his side. I am looking forward to having him by my side now until we meet again just in a different way. I will always be waiting for this day. I have so much to say, but can't say right now because the words do not come out. Words can not express my feelings. Just know a couple things:

  • I love Cory more than anything. This will never change.
  • I am so blessed to have such wonderful family and friends to carry me through this.

To all of those who have given SO much to us and continue to, how do I say thanks? Thank you is not sufficient to what people have done. People have been there more than I could have ever imagined possible. I will never be able to express my feelings on how grateful and amazing this has been to me.

Cory, I am so full of joy to know you are out of pain, but my heart will never be the same from the pain. I love you and will miss you more than words can say. Words honestly can not express how deep my feelings are for you.

Please refer to my dear friends blogs to know a little more of my feelings:

http://jadiejadenandjack.blogspot.com/

http://chandaslaughingplace.blogspot.com/

http://www.themightythaynes.blogspot.com/

33 comments:

Anonymous said...

Candace I don't think you will ever truly know the amazing impact Cory had on so so many lives. He was such an incredible inspiration and example to Jared and I. We want you to know how much we truly love Cory.
Please please let us know if you ever need anything. Anything at all.
We love you and Hayes and you are always in our thoughts and prayers.

Cher said...

Candace, I am so grateful that we (Erik and I) got to know Cory for the short time we did. He is a great, extremely talented person that will be greatly missed by all. We love you and Hayes so much! You have been a wonderful friend, and are so strong. I just wish I could be half the woman you are someday!

If you need anything at all, please let me know.

Love you -
Cheralynn Dansie and family.

Danielle said...

just wanted you to know how loved you are, and how sorry I am for your loss. I wish I had known Cory better, I wish I had been able to get to know you better and be your friend. I want you to know that I've always watched you and admired you for the amazing person you are. I have cried tears for you this week, and I know I am not alone. The world just doesn't seem right. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

LeeAnn said...

Wow, I found your blog yesterday and couldn't stop looking at all of your entries. I was thinking about you so much yesterday, and wow, then I read this today. So sorry for your loss and you are weighing heavy on my heart. I know I don't know you, but I felt so close to you after reading your blog. Truly a loss.
Keep your faith in God.
God Bless you and your family!

Marci said...

Candace - my heart is broken for you right now. I am so sad that Cory is gone. I do hope there is some comfort for you that he is out of pain. What an amazing guy he is - I am priviledged to know both of you. You especially have been an incredible example to me through all of this. Your dedication to being there for Cory through everything has touched me in ways I cannot explain. I am in awe of you. We will all miss Cory so much. Our family prayers have been dedicated to your little family for so long. We will continue to pray for you and Hayes. And we would of course love to help you in any way that we can. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Anonymous said...

Candace, We love you so much. Although we will miss our La Frontera and ice cream days with Cory (very much!), we know that we still have many with you and Hayes. Our hearts are with you and will always be there for you. You are an amazingly strong woman. Thanks for being a great example to me. We thank you and Cory for being in our lives. Love ya! Connie and Michael

Autumn & Chris said...

Dear Candace-
You are strong, amazing and devoted and I can't think of any other words to express our deepest sympathy and love for you and Cory. I've been following your blog for the last couple of months. Your family has been in our prayers. Cory and you touched our lives when we lived in the neighborhood. You've always had such a beautiful outlook on life. I look up to you and Cory sooooo much. You will continue to be in our prayers.
Love-
Autumn Bennett

The Dumas Family said...

Candace,
I know our Heavenly Father will comfort you during this time and always. Know that Cory will always be watching over you and Hayes until you can be together again. I admire your strength and courage that you displayed during this time. I admire your ability to care for your husband so lovingly and selflessly. You are an amazing woman and a wonderful example for your little boy.
All my love, thoughts & prayers,
Lindsey Dumas (Cozzens)

katie said...

Truly, truly sorry for your loss. May the Lord bless you and strenghten you.

Katie
from "team sandy"

Teri said...

Candace, I never got to meet you personally but we have exchanged many a scrapbook page in the past! We used to be in a scrapbook exchange together, I am Monica's cousin and Tonia and Mandee's sister as well as a good friend of all the Alldredges including your wonderful Husband. I got to know Cory in his teenage years and loved the thoughtful loving example he was. I have been keeping up with your life events through Monica and your blog and have felt impressed to post each time I would check your blog for updates but always talked myself out of it. I want you to know that allthough I didn't know you on a personal level I have learned what a loving person you are. Your constant care for you couragous Husband has made me think about and cherish my own relationship with my Husband. You and Cory seemed like a PERFECT MATCH! I am so sorry for your loss and wish you didn't have to go through the pain of losing someone, it brings me comfort to know that it is much harder for those of us left here on earth to have to wait to join with them again. I am sure you are looking forward to the Eternities with Cory as well as he is waiting for you to join him someday too! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Teri

Elle said...

Candace,
I hope you know how much you are loved by our little family.
I have had Emily and JonniAnn calling me to find out what they can do to help...and I just don't know! I have so much more to say to you, but I will see you soon and talk to you more.
We are so thankful Cory has always had you. You are amazing.
Love,
Michelle & Mat

little jill said...

Oh my gosh, I just popped over to see how you were doing and I gasped. I am so sorry for your loss. You must be absolutely exhausted. I'll keep checking up to see what's going on with you. I'll also be in Provo around the 16th or so if you'd like to meet. I have no idea where in Utah you live. Stay strong.

xoxo Jill

Hoagland's said...

Candace, My heart aches for you. I am so sorry for your loss. I know that Cory was an amazing person and will truly be missed by all. You are such an inspiration to many as you have journeyed through this path in your life. You are such a strong woman and I know that you will be blessed for your valiant efforts. I too have been keeping up to date thru your blog and Monica, and have felt inspired to write, but never did. It is so wonderful to have the gospel in our lives and to know that you and Cory will be reunited once again. Until that time, keep your head up high and know that there are many who pray for you and your family. Mandee Hoagland

Tonia said...

Candace,
My heart aches for you also...what valiant servants of the lord you and Cory are. I know that our Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us and that he will be a great comfort to you during this time of sorrow. I am so sorry for your loss but I also know that we will all be reunited together on the other side with our loved ones, and what a joyous ocassion that will be. It is so hard for those of us left behind but I know that Cory will be with you always. What an excellent example of love and respect of a husband and a wife that you and Cory are to all of us. Like both of my sisters who left comments above, I have also checked your blog everyday and been in touch with Monica and you all have been in my prayers as well. I will keep praying for your family to have comfort during this time. Tonia Nielsen

Anonymous said...

candace and Hayes,
Cory was such a good friend. He will be missed always and remembered forever. I am sorry you and Cory and your family had to endure so much pain and suffering. I am very sorry Cory isn't with us anymore, but now we know he is truly free from his prison.
Sharon and I wanted so badly to get together with you guys, We never got around to it, but you were always in our thoughts and prayers. We love you dearly and if there is anything we can do for you please don't hesitate to call. Here is a quote I came across recently, I hope you can get some comfort from it.

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, Love leaves a memory no one can steal."

All of our love,
Shelby & Sharon Herrera

Rebecca said...

I am a friend of Chanda's. I wanted you to know how sad I am for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. May you find solace in the Savior at this time. God bless you.

Anonymous said...

Candace,

You and Hayes are in our thoughts and prayers.

Cory was a great person, and dedicated to his family.

Kristi and I have enjoyed reading your blog. I especially got a kick out of the T100 bit as I am very familiar with that story...

I enjoyed the time I spent with Cory.

God bless.

Cliff & Kristi Wohl
Albany, NY

Anonymous said...

Dear Candace,
I love reading your tender feelings and seeing the fantastic pictures of you and Cory together- loving life. I consider myself so lucky to know you both.

Lots and lots of love,
Stephanie-- and Paul

Chanda said...

Truly - too much to say to possibly put it here. You are amazing. Love you!

Anonymous said...

Candace,

I just want you to know that Cody and I will always be there for you. Cory was a great friend and we feel honored to know him. You are a wonderful mother, wife, and friend and we treasure our friendship with you and Cory. We love you,

Cody and Kami Kemp

tatum said...

candace, i have been thinking about you and cory a lot since last november, who would have thought this would happen, this life is full of uncertainties. i just want you to know that i am grateful to have known you and cory this last year so that you could help me to be strong from your example. your a very kind and loving person as was cory. i am so glad we are friends. i've had a hard time watching you both suffer, and now that cory's suffering is over, hope you will be able to suffer less. i want you to know that i am here for you for anything. tatum

Kjerstin said...

I lived in Alldredge's neighborhood growing up, and my brother just told me today about Cory. I'm so sorry for your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Kjerstin (Seaman) Cook

Jonni Ann said...

I just want to let you know that you were an awesome example at the viewing tonight. I can't imagine going through what you have had to go through. I am so happy that you and Gayla have each other to turn to during these difficult times. I have a great amount of love for the Alldredge family. I always will. I feel so blessed that I was able to know Cory... and be teased by him countless times ;). I hope you know that my family loved and adored Cory so much. Keep being the awesome example that you are!

Love, Jonni Ann Roberts

Christie said...

Candace. I wanted to let you know how sorry I am. I have been thinking of you so much the past week and all the fun times we've had. You have always impressed me with the kindness, determination and humor you show in every situation. Cory was the same way. All of the times I spent with him I loved how at ease he helped everyone feel. You showed such such great care to him, and I am forever grateful for your example. I love you!

Christie

cHeRi" said...

Candace! I am so sorry about your loss! The funeral was beautiful! I just wanted you to know that we are thinking of you and Hayes and you guys are in our prayers!!

Tamra said...

Candace, your love sounds amazing. I am so grateful Cory is free from pain, but at a loss to express my sympathies for the pain that you endure and the loss of all that you could have shared together. Saying you and Hayes are in my prayers doesn't sound like enough, but you are. I know I don't know you well, so I will offer to babysit Kamille's kids if ever you need her. Your eternal love story is an inspiration to me to be a better wife and friend to my sweet husband and to cherish the time we have together. Thank you for sharing you're and Cory's amazing story!

Tamra, (cooking club and the Sandy team)

Anonymous said...

Hey Candace, I'm like you as words cannot express how I feel. I want you to know that you're constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I'm here for you. Seriously call me anytime, even at 2am, if you need someone to talk to. Love you! Becca M.

Anonymous said...

Candace,

I wanted to let you know that Trent and I have been thinking about and praying for you and your family. I just cried as I read your blog, and got a glimpse of how much you and Cory love each other, and your son. Your talent of capturing moments of happiness will keep so many memories alive, until you can be with each other again. Please call if you need anything. I'll check up on you to see if there's anything I can do.

Janell Brown

The Imels said...

I don't even know where to begin of what to say. I am so so sorry that I could not make it home. I wish so bad I could have. You have been in my thoughts and prayers for weeks. Your family is like my family. I love you all dearly. Corey is such an awesome man. He always made me laugh that is for sure. He will definitely be missed. But luckily you will be with him again. you are such a great person and a strong personl If anyone could get through this you can. I love you guys to pieces! I will see you soon!

The Redhead said...

Candace, I don't know you and I found this blog through someone in our ward. I read and could not believe what I saw. I looked at the picture of Corey and couldn't believe it. We used to hang out with him all the time right after highschool. We all loved him and he always made us laugh. I remember the last time I heard about him was from our friend Brooke and she said that he had married the most beautiful girl and had a son. I am so sorry to hear of his struggle and of your loss. I am so glad to know he is out of pain. What a great person he was. I just want you to know that so many people loved him and I hope and pray that each day will get easier for you. I can't imagine what you are going through. Im so sorry for you and your son's loss. You are a a beautiful girl and your little family is beautiful.

Lauri said...

Candace We just wanted to wish you a Happy Mother's Day! We really hope you can truly enjoy it!
Please let us know if you need anything! We love you!
Lauri Jared and Grant

Angie Seaman said...

I'm so very sorry. Although I do not know you personally, please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. There will be years that ask and there will be years that answer. In the end, God NEVER wastes pain. Blessings,
Angie Seaman
www.angelicagracedesigns.com/blog/
www.angelicagracedesigns.com

kelly said...

you are absolutely amazing.